There is no time limit on grieving, no road maps, or even rule book on how to grieve properly. Everyday is a different set of emotions, a different set of questions and so many unanswered.
When I loss Angela I never imagined that I could hurt or feel such an anguish and pain, but I did. The type of devastation I endure that day when I received the phone call of her passing will haunt me for the rest of my life. Cancer wasn’t an easy fight, but it was definitely one I thought we’d win. Her faith never wavered throughout the entire process many days i would think to myself how is she so strong?
What we had was more than love it was a bond, a spiritual connection, a soul connection and when she died I lost a piece of me that day. Many people live their entire lives together and never have the privilege of ever knowing or experiencing what that feels like, but I was blessed to have had it.
Each day I wake up now and I tell myself that this is all a part of life and the most high has a plan. I tell myself to keep going even on the days the pain is too much to bare. I remind myself daily that’s she’s up there watching over me and my spiritual connection allows me to communicate with her whenever I want.
I never thought I’d have to live this life without her, but I k we the day would come. I loved her then, now, and forever. She will always be a part of me.